Saturday, September 19, 2009

"the prophet's song"

The cure to my headache right now...
Am listening to Queen again...
I was listening to Dave Matthews Band before...
It still makes me wonder how music such as from these bands I like give me this feeling of euphoria...
Like, there's no one else that exists but me and the music...
saying I love it is not enough...
I still can't explain it...
If only I could make it more part of my life...
But everything seems to be out of control...

*sigh I'm still confused...

why?!

ugh, i'm having a headache...

I owe it a lot to music...it changed me!

I have this "distant view" playing the piano in a garden...just me and the piano and the plants and the morning sun, and the mist....and the music....

**i'm being weird right now.....

peace...

Friday, September 11, 2009

Remember 9/11

Today is the 8th anniversary of the World Trace Center attack incident.

What a very tragic day it was, September 11, 2001. Can you believe that 8 years have already passed since that tragic event? I'm watching it all over now on the History Channel... I'm still quite shocked. I mean I've never really seen it up close but still... I'm sure it's a shock to everyone all over the world. I really want to meet more people who have this catastrophic event happening in front of their eyes. Just to know what it's like...So many lives have been lost just because some terrorirsts feel like they want to kill themselves along with many others. So selfish!

I remember seeing the towers smoking and on fire on our television. I remember first thinking that it was some kind of movie. And then I realized that it was real... The horror... I mean I just saw it on T.V. How much more to those who have seen it and those who have families, friends and relatives who died that day?

Oh man, it's like happening again watching it on t.v. right now. It gives me the chills... Seeing one or two people jumping from the highest tower... With all these people who were videotaping the events on that day sharing the videos and their reaction to national television... Unbelievable!! It did happen huh?!?

Look! (at the t.v.) The towers are still standing! I wish it didn't collapse...I don't think it was necessary... But it happened...

I pray for the souls of those people who died that day... Who woke up and started their daily routines without the slightest idea that in a few hours they'll be trapped in a building with no other way out but death... I also pray for the relatives, who, eight years from now still mourn their loss and still fighting the acceptance of reality...

Let's never ever forget this day, no matter where you are in this world... Let's always remember; for the people who died just because...

You gotta admit, it affected us all...

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Special Day?!

Just thought I'd post something about this "special" day.. I don't really know what's so special today. It kind of mystifies me...

Well, my day started at 6am. Gotta wake up early cuz today's my clinical day. My school is 45mins far and I have to take the bus, so really gotta wake up that early. Or else, I'm gonna be late...again. Some may disagree that 6am is not really that early but if you're not a morning person like me, sheesh! you'll know what I mean. And if you're also like me who was, back in the summer, would still be awake at 6 in the morning...well you get my drift.

So...so far, I don't remember what happened back in January 1, 2001. I don't have the mind yet to register things like that cuz I never had my "enlightening" yet (I'm weird, I know...)

February 2, 2002..hmmm, let's see I was 11 so pretty much it had something to do with my "repa" ("peers").

March 3, 2003, no...nothing,,probably getting ready for our 5th grade graduation (if you can call that graduation). 4 days before my second older bro's birthday...7 days later, The Police were inducted in the Rock and Roll of Hame.

April 4, 2004, yeah...3 days after my 6th grade graduation! 3 days after being over elementary...3 days after our victory party which was held in our house. 21 days before my first -teenth birthday...Nothing special really happened that exact day...

May 5, 2005...a year later after I had that dream in 2004 about a mysterious guy. A dream about "love" as I started my teenage year in '04..(corny!) Up to now, I still don't know who that guy was. I'm sure I've never met him either...7 months later I left my beloved place and friends...:( 13 days before my oldest bro's birthday...

June 6, 2006 hmmm...i'm glad i don't remember anything from this year cuz it was a hell year..I just realize it's 666. Wait, now the only thing I remember is that, on this day the movie The Omen (remake) came out...My teacher Ms. Henry in Spanish is dying (Rest In Peace, Ms. Henry)

July 7, 2007 LIVE EARTH!!!! The best day ever, though I didn't made it to the shows. I watched the whole telecast on our telly! Great day for music and for spreading the word about our slowly dying Mother Earth...Also, the year The Police came back...And the Live Earth shows, was one of their first shows together in what 23 years (I'm not counting that time where they did a mini reunion in 86, in '92 on Sting's wedding with Styler were Summers & Copeland were present, and that time they were inducted in the Rock and Roll of Hame in '03).

August 8, 2008 Olympics, of course. Who doesn't know?!...At 1:38am (see, I remember tiny specific stuff since I left) I was inside a car with a stranger who was kind enough (and not creepy) to give me a ride home from New York (with a separate driver). The day before or hours before, I was singing at the top of my lungs at The Police final concert in Madison Square Garden...My first concert, my first time being alone in NY, my first biggest lie to my parents (I told them I'm going to a job interview). On my way there it went smoothly. Going home was a different story. I took the wrong subway and I missed my bus. Luckily that guy was there. And fortunately enough, I wasn't punished or grounded by my parents...

September 9,2009 today. I just learned where long-term facility am I going to report on my clinical days... Did some vital signs... yeah, that's it. Well, the day ain't over yet so who knows in 5hrs left, before this day is over, what's gonna happen.

I didn't expect this post to be long. But as I was told before by my "shrink" I have a certain illness that once I start writing I can't stop myself. I have to force myself to stop.

Oh well, as I've said before I'm weird. So anything I missed about these days, just say something. Leave a message whatever. Like someone's actually reading this...

okay i'll stop now. ciao!
Have a great 9/9/9 day! Don't forget about 9/11!

peace...


(posted at 7:00pm) time at the bottom not accurate

Monday, September 7, 2009

Show Must Go On

September 5, 2009

Happy birthday to Mr. Freddie Mercury: Lover of Life, Singer of Songs...

On the 5th was his 63rd birthday...

Although he no longer lives with us today, he's still alive in our hearts especially to those who have seen him in action back in the 70s with the one and only Queen.

I never saw him but his music and Queen's music is still alive for me. No one knows, in this whole world, how Freddie and Queen with their music helped me "survive". It was kind of an enlightenment. You'll know what I mean when you're meant to. I owe it to their music!

It may sound cheesy, but you'll never really know how much you needed something when it's way over your reach; I've been there, and still there. And tell you what, their music helped me realize, it's okay I just gotta hold on... Although I may never know how much long to hold on, I'm still gripping as hard as I can.

I play their music on the piano (not all), and still trying to play it on the guitar.

Whatever, happy birthday Mr. Bad Guy...

Thanks for sharing the wonderful music to the world...

Queen for life...

peace