What if you're stuck and you don't know what else to do?

Funny, cuz that's the exact situation I'm in right now. Nursing or music? Should I choose? When I was young I've always said to myself that when I grow up I want to be a nurse just like my mom. Then came the time where I finished high school, and its really time to face that "grow up" moment. I've been having second thoughts about going to the nursing field. My interest moved from that excited, little child who wanted to be a nurse to that freshly out of high school who wanted to do something in the music field, but which ones I don't know.

I'm embarassed to admit that I want to do something about music to my parents. Don't ask me why, I just don't know. So that time to decide came, I don't know which direction I should go but two years later, which is now, I'm in my second year of college pursuing nursing. I don't know what happened but I managed. I'm still having doubts but somehow my experience when I had my first clinical experience changed something about my confused, lost mind. I felt good, I felt satisfied that I helped someone. Before when asked, "why are you doing nursing if it's not really what you want?" My answer would always be, "I do it because of the money." Well, I take that back now. I'm not doing this because of the money anymore. I realized that it's not really about the money. It's about helping. It's about doing things together with the patient you're taking care of that normally the patient alone could not do. Even the small tasks we always take for granted like eating, bathing, walking, etc.

I'm still not sure what I'm doing here. My mind is still not on the full scale of going the nursing way. I'm still interested in music. I'm still thinking about doing a music career. I mean at night, I would say I could teach music once I got my degree. I don't have to be a musician, just doing something with music is fine with me. And just as long as I can play my piano and listen to my favorite artists and bands I'm fine.

But why choose when I can do both? It's not easy but it's doable. At the end of the day, after a long, boring class I still have my music. I still have my iPod, my guitars and my piano. All I need to do is manage my time. It came to me, that incorporating music to nursing could also be a great idea. You know, music and nursing; nursing and music together. How? That's what I'm still trying to figure out.

I still wake up confused and lost sometimes. Without a purpose. But hey, I'm just trying to go with the flow. Whatever's planned for me it's going to happen. If not, then move on. I'm just hoping that whatever's in store for me in the future, I'll be ready. And I hope, I will never ever have to choose again and the confusion will stop.

peace, to any readers...

Freddie Mercury 18 Years Gone

Freddie Mercury

Sept. 5, 1946 - Nov. 24, 1991

He died the year I was born...

7 months and 213 days to be exact...

I still wonder what its like if he's still alive today...

I just actually realized that today was the day he died...

What was it like back then? Wish I knew...

He was very unique, no one can capture his essence, his talent, his flamboyance.

I don't know what made me so obsessed with Queen, I just know that I'm so into them that I wonder how come not everyone are. I know not anyone my age can say that...

I keep looking why the music back then is so rich, so powerful, full of harmony, and have a very complicated, majestic repertoire compared to music of today which is full of pop and same tunes and melodies...

I want to know what it feels like to be alive back then, on the era where great music was just beginning. Where the music you hear next is so different from anything else you'd be wondering if that music was made here on Earth. Or if its humanely possible.

"Music is what keeps us together," that's what Freddie said. Because its true. People with different interest, personalities, attitudes, and cultures can suddenly be one just because of a simple music.

Did you even noticed that people listen more to their favorite artists or bands talking about global warming, hunger, sickness, poverty, etc. than any politicians?

I'm telling you music solves anything. And I believe that Freddie Mercury and Queen made this world a better place to live because of the music they made together. Queen and their music is what you can call "making a difference".

FREDDIE MERCURY, 18 years you've been gone in this world but to my heart and to everyone's heart who has been a supporter of Queen and you since day one, you're very much alive with us. The lyrics, the voice, the melody. You're the only one and we still miss you. We love you and you're always going to be with us no matter what.

I guess someone powerful enough needed you somewhere else, so there you are wherever you are. We all know you're in a much better place now. Somehow I believe that the day a great musician dies, there's some kind of a gathering somewhere else where all the musicians meet and just sing with the other angels. (Weird, but that's how I am.)

IS THIS THE WOLRD WE CREATED...?

What an interesting day?!

So I was in the bus on my way to school. Same old, same old. I waited for the bus for about 10 minutes, I got in and paid. As usual I had my iPod on. By the way, I was listening to Red Hot Chili Peppers. Its my routine. Sit on the bus, look at the window - the usual. Then I got a tap on my shoulder. I look over and before I had the chance to see the face of the tapper, there was a folded paper in front of me by the stranger. I took it and I read it.

I was kind of surprised! I found out she was a girl. Her name is Dorothy, she wrote on the letter that she wants to make new friends. And that her New Year's resolution is to not be shy anymore. She wanted to say hi, and so I turned and look at her and said HI! She was nice. On her letter, she told me that she sees me on the bus all the time and it wouldn't hurt if she talks to me at all and that she just want to say hi. I was taken aback because that was really the least incident I expected to happen today. We talked for awhile but she was about to leave cuz her stop was already there so next Tuesday, we'll probably get to know each other more. Not really bad.

I just thought I'd share this because it just goes to show that its not really that hard to make friends. I'm still, shocked...I can't think of any other term but of course in a good way. On that short talk we had, I found out that we both are doing a healthcare major. Although hers is Dentistry and mine's nursing. I mean, yeah people can be creepy and weird sometimes but some are just really, I don't know, have good intentions.

hmmmm..very interesting day...i love it when the things you least expect happens and gives you that surprise that you never really thought happen in real life...

oh well..peace!!

No, Aerosmith is not breaking up! I repeat not breaking up!!

Steven Tyler made a surprise appearance at Joe Perry's solo show in New York Tuesday (Nov.10) night and announced he isn't leaving their rock band Aerosmith.

Tyler, appeared and surprised both Perry and the audience, to set the record straight Tuesday night.

"I just want New York to know, I am not leaving Aerosmith," NME.com quoted Tyler as saying during the Joe Perry Project gig at the Filmore. "And Joe Perry, you are a man of many colors but I, f*cking, am the rainbow!"

The band then played Aerosmith's 1975 classic "Walk This Way" during which Tyler slung his arm around Perry.

There's still doubts floating around though. Perry just said on Wednesday that all was still not well in the band. He just referred to Tyler as an "acquaintance" and that they are "positively" looking for a new frontman. (Ouch!)

Whatever's really happening behind the curtains, I hope the band fix their problems and get a mutual understanding on what they really want to do as Aerosmith. I'm gripping with Tyler's words still, that "There is absolutely no validity to the rumor that Aerosmith is breaking up."

**courtesy of NME.com

Tyler left Aerosmith!!!!!!

This event is like waiting to be happened...

Everybody had a feeling that something isn't right when Steven Tyler had that fall on stage...

It has been brewing, it's like there's a tension..

Oh hell, what do I know.. It just sucked that after all these years, after all the ups and downs, the drugs, the music, the stardom..it's finally over... Well, it kinda happened before, so who knows.. Maybe they'll be back again, they just really needed a break from each other.. I mean 40 years, that's very long...

Here's the article about Tyler's quit at Live Daily

Phi Theta Kappa

I'm finally a member!!!

Yeah!!!!!

Last Thursday, Nov. 5th was my induction. It was awesome... Candle lightin, doing our pledge, stating our name and major on stage... What a great experience!

Alpha Theta Theta is the chapter of my school Essex County College...

Today, I attended my first meeting as a member. I mean, I've been to a meeting before but that was when I wasn't a member yet!!!!

I don't know, I'm just so ecstatic about it...

Oh, and we did a Walk for Hunger.. Two miles walk to raise awareness about the increasing hunger problem in our world today, even here in our own Newark....

Tomorrow, we're raising awareness about Leukemia and Lymphoma... I couldn't really attend because of my clinical duty tomorrow so to all who's reading this blog please make an effort to donate to your local hospital or other associations raising awareness about Leukemia and Lymphoma because every 4minutes a child or a loved one is being diagnosed of these horrible diseases. It might be someone you know, so please take some time to inform others about these and make some donations..

Thanks to all!

Stigmatized

I'm just really mesmerized when I hear this song, especially when I saw the video, the acoustic one where the band shot it in Italy... What a beautiful scenario it was...

I'm gonna learn this to play in the guitar now...

Oh, and Tear by Red Hot Chili Peppers, so effin cool to hear myself play it on the piano....

Just thought I'd share that...

And Stigmatized is by The Calling...

I remember back in what, 5th grade I think, my bestfriend told me about The Calling... She told me to listen to Stigmatized, and I fell in love the very first time I heard it... I'm glad she shared their music to me...

I miss her so much! A shoutout to Aya, my one and only bestfriend.. I'm like half way round the world from her..

Below is the video of Stigmatized, watch it and you'll be amazed and know exactly what I mean...the other one is Tear, it's not really a video but just the image of the By The Way album cover while the song is being played... Both songs are stuck in my mind right now...Lovin' it!

Enjoy!